I have nothing to say, but I just wanted to say it. Nothing. Worked until 5.30 tonight, which actually means that I didn’t leave until 10 to 6. Nothing wrong there. I just had to get up super early this morning to help a friend out. I woke up with a sore throat. Really sore. Sore neck even from the swollen glands. I so wish that I’d get rid of this bug that I’ve been fighting for weeks.
I feel like I’m dealing with a lot right now.
Sam has 2 infected nails. He picks at them until they are swollen red and pus-sy. He nearly lost a nail on the weekend, so we’ve been soaking them (and soaking, and soaking, almost hourly) in vinegar or warm salt water. Depending on the mood. They are still red, but not so yucky.
Sam was bullied at after school care today. He came home in a bad mood as a result and 2 steps inside the front door got cranky that we were having beef curry (cooked in the slow cooker for my whole shift lol). Didn’t need that.
Just spent a half hour composing a letter to his carer about today. Really don’t need this. I’m sitting here feeling like I’ve been put under a steamroller for the day, and I just can’t see why I’m doing it. But I can leave, any time I want to. We don’t rely on the money. I could just quit.
I just worked out my roster for next week – I’m working EVERY single day. Saturday’s included. So that’s 7 out of 8 days. Good for the wallet, but I’ll be a total wreck by the end of it. Don’t need that either.
It’s all the little things that are just building up now. I’m trying to clean out cupboards, in a desperate attempt to feel a bit more in control, but who am I kidding.
I need a holiday, a headache tablet and a good sleep. Not in that order.
Thanks for listening. I feel better now.