I have been asking myself that question a lot lately. What are you waiting for?
You may have already heard this quote, or something like it. “Be the change.” I want to change that saying to “Live the change.” With the new year, there are resolutions, and “one-word” challenges etc all over the blogosphere. Some people embrace it, some are threatened by it. I am neither, I am just looking at my life, and saying. Why wait until January? Why wait until I have more time, or more money, or more energy? If it’s ever going to start, why wait?
I think that more than one person can relate to this next bit. I place all sorts of restrictions on myself. I tell myself that it’s ok, because I’m not the sort of person that….. (fill in the blank!) That drinks green tea. That achieves goals. That enters competitions (let alone wins anything!)
I have even tried to tell myself that I’m not the sort of person that anyone takes seriously. Not professionally, anyway. And no amount of new year hopefulness or “one-wordedness” will change me, if at first, I don’t stop lying to myself. What right have I to say such negative, be-littling things? I wouldn’t say it to anyone else, but somehow it’s ok to say it to me? Why am I so worthless? And then the truth dawns on me, over time, that I am not.
So this is the year of
“I am the sort of person that ……..”
Enters photo competitions. Done. I’ll get back to you if I ever win anything, but I’ll win more than if I never enter!
Drinks green tea. Done.
Takes care of herself, as no-one else is going to do it for me. Starting with the haircut I got yesterday that was again, 2 months overdue. It’s amazing how much of a confidence booster it is to get something like that done. It comes under the old “fake it till you make it”. If you want to be taken seriously, LOOK the part.
Buys presents for friends. Something that I have avoided in the past because I look at them and think, what have I got to give them? They won’t like anything I choose. I don’t care, I’m putting love and thought into every single one of them, and my friends will reap the rewards.
Next up will come some dreams. For years now, I have been dreaming about taking my photography to the next level, getting some official training and seeing where it leads me. However, my circumstances are just not going to fit with what I wanted to do, due to short-sighted learning providers that don’t offer a part-time option 😦 Ok. So after 3 years of waiting, I’m just going to find another way around it. So you’ll just have to wait and see where that one takes me at the moment.
So, there you are. What are you waiting for? If I want to be that type of person, I guess I’m going to have to make it happen. And so off I go!